I might not have worked on the weapon even if you hadn't been brought here."She smiled at him and turned to look at the lake again, "How do you feel a...bout me, I mean what are your plans for me? I guess you'll want to get on with your own life soon."He tried to put his arm around her and she moved away until Thor's body prevented her from moving farther away. He stopped trying to hold her and was silent for a minute."Ann, I love you. I think you know that. I'm just so afraid that you'll feel. I walked slowly and tried once more to imagine what could be happening to turn me into the slut that I was becoming. There was just no answer and it was infuriating.When I got to my apartment I went straight to the kitchen. I made myself a stiff drink and then stood in front of the refrigerator and tried to decide what to eat. I had eaten almost nothing in the last three days and the hunger was finally catching up with me.I finally settled on a salad and some left over tuna casserole. What I. I prayed it never would.What I did get used to surprisingly quickly was sleeping with Helmutspooned up behind and the warmth of his body next to mine - comfortablewith it, even - and as used to his caresses as I had become to hiskisses. Of course, bigger than all this was Helmut declaring his lovefor me in the meadow. As a boy I'd always imagined myself one day beinga man and declaring my love to a pretty girl. Instead, I *was* thepretty girl and a man had declared his love to me. The. That, or she's a tease.He didn't believe she was a tease. Time would tell. She was his employer. She'd have to seduce him, not the other way around.Like my sister when we were teenagers, he thought.He drove to his brother-in-law's used car lot and quit his job, which didn't upset his brother-in-law, just the opposite. Flint knew he wasn't a very good salesman. His brother-in-law had merely accommodated his wife's request to give her brother a job. Then he drove to his sister's house and packed.