I'm going to make sure we get to work with her. I just have to geteveryone else to agree." Okay," I said again, but this time my tone was more positiv...e."When did she want to work on the song?" he asked."Oh," he caught me off-guard. I hadn't thought that far ahead. "It wouldhave to be after the Christmas concert," I rattled off immediately asavailable dates started bouncing around inside my head. "So, like threeweeks from now? Will that work?" Probably," he said. "Let me talk to the other guys. We ate, the conversations were good and people seemed to be in a cheerful mood. While everyone was eating and laughing I watched Daniel. He seemed relaxed now and also talked to me casually when he wasn't occupied with anyone else. Strange ideas crossed my mind. I thought about slipping my foot into his pants. It would be easy. He was wearing shorts that ended over his knee even when he stood. I would just have to extend my leg brush my foot against the inside of his thigh and than slowly slide. I am an American, and he is from Kolkotta. In the dream, I was able to spend my first night with him, and come to know that he loved me as well. Dreams are all well and good, but they can leave you quite frustrated. Just a few days after the dream (which i was not able to get out of my mind), I was online with Raj. I had been drinking and taking some pain medicines, because I have some health issues. One side effect of these medicines, is that they loosen my tongue. It is the best way to get me. YOU'RE RIGHT, on a few counts. To have sex with someone new is NOT the reason I want to move on. I'm not exactly Don Juan, or Robert Redford, but I've had my share of opportunities. A lot of women want to see if Winning Winslow will rub off in them. I've turned down EACH AND EVERY ONE OF THEM! Do you know why I'm sending mixed messages? ... because I don't know what I want. But, plain and simple, I cannot live with you and be this way anymore. I can't tell you I want to marry you anymore, I.