" Raimi laid her head on the table and started to cry "that's just it I need to change and I'm scared, but today I proved to myself I can at least try... to make a stab at it." Natalie handed Raimi a napkin "what do you need to change, and why are you scared?" Raimi wiped her eyes and blew her nose "I'm scared Natalie, really scared to try and let a male touch me and that's what I need to change, I'm trying, I'm really trying, I don't want to spend the rest of my life scared." Raimi blew her nose. Laikin phir maine kisi na kisi tarah apna hath khala ki kamar pe rakha jahan se kameez hatihui thi.kuch lamhe wahan hath rakhne k baad maine hath phairna shuru kr diya.Ab to jaise mujh mein himmat aa rhi thi.Maine kameez thoriaur hata di aur hath phairta raha. (Gashti ko pata chal gaya tha k main hon bcuz ghar mein sirf hum 2 log he thay)khala apni jagah se zara bhi nhi hili. Mera dil choomne ko ker raha tha aurphir maine khala ki kamar pe apne hont laga diye aur choomne laga. Achanak wouth. " Are you familiar with Fate?" Fate?" The meeting had again taken a turn he had not imagined. "Likethe concept, the mythological creatures, or is this a person we'retalking about who is named 'Fate'? Because my answers in order are: Idon't believe in it, yes, and I haven't had the pleasure."Ms. Kuna put her glasses back on. She pushed her chin out, thinking."It's actually a little bit of all three. Fate is a..." Ms. Kuna shiftedher hands up and down as if weighing her words as she spoke,. " I lie. How's she gonna know?"You can't just tell me that and expect me to believe it." But you wanna believe it," I put my arms around her and pull her to me, "don't you?" I - uh - " she blushes and looks away from me. She puts her hand on my shoulder but I can't tell if she's trying to push or pull. She too small to do either, really. I pull her closer."You wanna believe anything I tell you, don't you? I'm eighteen, Jessie. Don't you feel better now?" I'm -" she swallows hard. She's actually.