Somehow I was able to have all these thoughts running around in my head and still remain sane!It became clear to me that this was not so much about he...r merely having sex with other men for my pleasure, but that she would come to desire it for her own pleasure. I wanted her to begin to crave it herself, and that this eventually would become something driven by her on her terms. I wanted her to embrace this freedom by doing her own thing whenever she wanted even if it meant without me even being. Rob went ha ha and the CSO moved on to the next crisis.Which turned out to be Veronica. Rob peered over his cubicle wall and accidentally caught her looking in his direction. She stiffened and turned away to talk to the CSO, but not before he had seen the hurt and anger in her face. Well, too bad. Some people needed to learn to handle rejection a little better. It wasn't as if he had promised any kind of commitment. He never did that. That would have been a lie.Mr. Allison walked by, and Rob. My room was back downstairs so I just bounced along, heading to my room to put some pajamas on. While down there I noticed that Tubby was laying on the floor apparently asleep.I decided on just a t-shirt, no panties, shorts, nothing. I wanted my pussy open in case I became horny again. After drying my hair I went into the living room and turned on the TV, content to just sit and watch the news. Tubby started waking up and began to sniff the air. He kept looking at me and I just kept saying. She'd waited to take her vengeance, until I'd put her out of my mind behind more important issues, and then she'd struck, as viciously as she used to with the tawse, choosing the moment and the place when it hurt most.Suspicion bored into my mind like a flesh-eating bug, consumed me more and more, keeping me from my work. I desperately needed someone to blame - apart from myself - I couldn't, wouldn't let it go despite Felicity's increasingly desperate urging. So, in early January 1979, after.