Swati: You can take a shower in your room. I don’t think you are thinking of using my shower, right?Me: (smile) As long as it stays in the four wall...s, I won’t mind even sleeping on this bed.Swati: Society will know if one of us speaks up. If we do that, then we will never be able to live as happy as we are.Me: I think you already told your friend, Nayan, about what you feel.Swati: And she shared her story of fucking her son. She showed me clips, and that is the reason I started having…It is. . acting like a girl? And you didn't say anything?" Figured you'd talk when you were ready. It was soon clear you weren'ttrying to do some kind of imitation, like a drag performer. It was likethere was something you couldn't help showing once you felt safe enougharound me. A girl inside, starting to come forward."My head swimming, I tried to look back at how I behaved around Tom. How Ihad moved, how I had held my hands, even the fact that I had giggled -giggled! At some of Tom's jokes."I .... The thought of being a doctor has never excited me. It’s my father who chose my career path, he is a heart surgeon and wanted his little daughter to follow him into cardiology. Don’t for one minute think I’m a pushover, but I can’t exactly say, hey dad, I would rather be dancing poles and getting my arse felt by random men... could I?It’s not that I didn’t try and get a normal job to get me through uni. When I first arrived in London I got a job at as a waitress in a high-end Indian restaurant,. Anyway, you were telling a quite good story before we were side tracked."Aserythe smiled again. Larisa couldn't help but smile too."Well, once I went through their ritual, I woke up in a prison cell of sorts. Sir Wilson came to me to explain the situation. The next morning, I began my training. That went well for three weeks. Then, one night, I don't know exactly how long ago it was, but it was only a few days ago, I was going to sleep when I started thinking about why I wasn't worried or upset.