He was embarrassed but I told him I liked what he was doing, enjoyed his being dressed as a woman and that he was passable. I told him he really shoul...d be a she and that everyone would get excited seeing her outside and not know she was a he. He said he shaves everything and wanted to go out dressed and I said we would go out together. I told him I had fantasies about what he was doing and had worn some women’s clothes before and jacked off. I asked him if he thought my girlfriend was. ”She nodded and laid her head against my chest again, seeking comfort in the certainty of my body. “I’ll miss her.”“Me too,” I said, my voice raspy with pent-up emotion.My chest was tight and I felt a growing knot in the pit of my stomach. I didn’t want to believe it. A car accident. Just some random thing.Random hurts.Some time later, I don’t know how long, the phone rang. My wife stepped back and wiped her eyes, smiling bleakly at me.I cleared my throat and then picked up the. It was mid day when I saw the rabbit ahead and turned to dig into my things. I found my sling and my pouch of small river stones. I slipped off the wagon and had Marie lead the horses as I walked ahead.Not only did I kill the rabbit but I got a second just minutes after I did it. I skinned and cleaned them and began to walk beside the wagon as I hung them on the side. I plucked long blades of grass and started to weave them into a basket. I made a top and waved the biting flies away and put the. As I approached my house, I saw the two maid girls, Pushpa and Rani, waiting near the gate, sitting in the verandah in front. Upon seeing me, they got up and Pushpa said “We are tired of ringing the bell sir ... we thought you must be sleeping.” and smiled mischievously.I opened the door and let them in. I went to finish my morning ablutions as they got about their work. As I was brushing my teeth in the bathroom, the older girl, Rani came to the door, and said tentatively “Sir ... soap ....