We talk about everything and nothing,as long as it's something. This day in particular, She tells me that we are goingto try something new. She puts a... blindfold on me, and makes certain that Ican't see, then leads me around the park by my hand. Even though I amblindfolded, my head still turns from side to side, trying to get some idea ofwhere She is leading me. I follow without question, even though my head isfull of them. After a few laps around the park, She leads me home. Onceinside, She. She got up, pulled the bed apart to get her rubber sheeting out, and went through the tedious inch-worm routine again. When she had the door opened and the safety on, she closed it again, then went and remade her bed for the second time in a few short hours.I never thought I'd be making the same bed so often, once I kicked basic training, she thought.She paced quietly around her room, wondering why she was so restless. She wondered what Jonas was doing. As she thought of him, she couldn't help. I bit my lip as my eyes shown more and more bewildering thoughts. He held my hands in his, kissed my lips, and told me that everything was going to work out fine. Where will you live? I asked. He told me that he had been looking at some apartments already. I asked what his reasoning was for wanting to come to Iowa. When he said me, I knew he was making a mistake and I told him so. He looked saddened by my evaluation and I tried to explain that I didnt want him giving up so much for me. Then I. Justtalk. And I watch them. I'm frightened I might be found out." Well I found you out, Kenny, and it's not so bad, is it? Are you gay? Doyou want to make love with other men?" I, well, I don't think I am. Gay videos are gross, I don't find thosebig hairy men attractive at all. I love women and men who dress as women.I don't know why but I get turned on watching older men, sometimesoverweight, with sloppy or ridiculous makeup, kiss and fondle other men.They'd never pass as women but, I don't.