. that a mother should not have for her son. But we have to control them. It's not right. We have to live close together in the same house for a few m...ore months until you go to college. Promise me that you will try to control yourself."Jimmy felt his heart soar. She had admitted that she felt more than a mother son relationship. He was smart enough not to press it. "I know we have to control it mom and I promise I'll try," Jimmy said, smiling now. "I'll stop peeping on you."Jennifer had a smile. Looking down, I realized that my hand was clenched around the hard wood from thecrutch. Fully awake I slowly stood and managed to relax my grip seeing that there was nothing inthe room. Standing there in silence, I waited, not knowing what was happening. Scratching myhead and yawning, I thought, ‘Maybe I had been dreaming again?’Then the strangest thing happened, my zipper started to slide down all on its own! Watchingit happen, I quickly pinched my arm, hard. No, that wasn’t it I was awake. I. She knew now that she would never be particularly attracted to girls although she loved being with them as friends, good friends often, sharing ideas and secrets. She also new that she wasn't gay, well Simon wasn't at least although for a time he thought he might be when he realised that girls did not turn him at all. He had even explored this with a few friends who were openly gay but, once again, something was still not quite right. They wanted to be with another boy which, of course, left no. ”“I’ll help you up to your room, Dad,” Ezra said, then took his arm, steadying him as they walked up the front steps.Eli stood on the ground in front of the house long after they had gone in and closed the door.He started toward the steps to go see about his friend, but Kit and Ruby ran to him and grabbed his arms. They were all gathering in the barn to have a dance and sing songs in celebration of the Young Bucks becoming deputies.He turned to see his Crow girls with their husbands, and.