I am being selfish. I want both my old love and new loves. My heart has grown it holds all four of you now. Without all of you in it to support it, i...t will collapse and be broken. No, I can’t go back, I love you all now.” Both of them smile at me. “To me love and lust are two different things. You can love someone without lusting for them. You can lust for someone without loving them. But it special when you both love and lust for the same person. I lusted for Jewels before I loved her,. Guys there is no better feeling on the planet when you kiss your girl with all that love hidden in ya heart.. If you guys agree then please lemme knowI started kissing her ever so slowly and she too started to feel the love and started to respond to my kiss.. I slowly hugged her and she responded with the same and we started to kiss each other very passionately.. we almost kissed for 8 to 10 mins and she had her eyes closed all this while.. Which proved that she was enjoying this beautiful. I know he's not having sex with you. If I didn't know better, I'd say both of you were getting some from someone else ... Sorry mom."She said, "That's all right, I've noticed the same strange things too. You just took longer to figure it out. I too am starting to think he's having an affair. But I have no proof, so I don't say anything. We haven't had sex in so long, I can't remember the last time. In fact, it probably wasn't that memorable anyway. Now you know why it was so easy for you and. "What do you mean by that?" I asked"Well honey" he said, taking my hand after shifting the car into drive... "daddy made a bundle of money today, so much in fact that your college fund is already paid in full..."I was pretty tired, so I said "that's great," I was a bit in shock that I'd be able to go to Stanford now, so I didn't know how to react."That's great..." he said, he mocked my reactions. "That's more than great. When we get home, I'll show you what I found."I relaxed into the seat and.