"She understood, explaining to him, "I started just after my 12thbirthday. I couldn't do it anymore. I just couldn't deal with theprospect of being a ...man. We become men early in our family, my olderbrothers started at just after 12 and started looking like men by 15. Icouldn't do it, I told them if I couldn't be a girl I'd end things tokeep from becoming a man. They got me help, Tio made them see that Ineeded help. He said he knew a boy like me who was a girl inside and whowas worse off, he. Now all this men will know that I use sex toys. I should have said stop right then and gotten up. But the guys where all excited and yelling “Awesome Bill let’s see you use them on her”Bill had brought in two of my favorite toys. One of them a silicone rubber life like cock. It felt and looked like a real cock. It was about the size of Bill’s cock. The other toy was a small vibrator I like to use on my clit. With all the excitement of the guys, I thought alright Bill and use these on my pussy. ”“Is it how they say? Does she look like a bedsheet with two holes cut out for eyes? Or do things move about in your room when you aren’t there?’“N-no, no nothing like that. I have actually...seen her. A couple of times actually, though I didn’t know it was Janie at first.”“Is that why you came to me before? You saw her but weren't quite certain?”“Kinda, yeah.” I looked at the clock: quarter past one. I should get going; there was one more thing I wanted to get done before practice.“I’ve got to. She was a model and she's been in lots of catalogs and some ads in magazines. She was in "New Woman" for skin cream. The ad said, "Now 53 can look like 35 again". Mom is seated with her back to you. You can see her smiling face in profile and a hint of the curve of the full breast under her arm. The way she's lit makes her look like unending smooth skin from head to toe. It's another picture for my scrapbook.I had always found my mother attractive. When I was very young I thought she was.